Sometimes,
I’ve been so disconnected cause my ignorant so strong
I don’t know how to feel it
In another case,
When you have everything, you couldn’t hear anybody scream at you
Say something wrong, they still won’t interrupt you
I put my heart,
Trying to speed up my ego,
Until i used to think back then that i’m supposed to heal your scars
Still,
“You can’t be everything to everybody”
Toss my hopes out,
Hold your tight,
I wanna be your Batman, Robin, Daredevil
Fight to turn down know who your rival’s in
I want to hurt you up, to be the one who heal you up
Feel you up, build you up, cheer you up
I will gave them 10 million bucks if it worth to stop hint, vibes & ‘the blablabla’
So, you can save up your beauty thunder
Cause, how can be i feel something and it goes somewhere
Maybe, it more dangerous if God wasn’t try to check us
Now, i’ve been check my own self
You’re not even suppose to calling my name
I be having cut my health & wealth
Run into you like the first time i met you before
Day 1, day 2
I ain’t no circus, no i’m not
First day in Hospital, said my momma need my help, need some +A
I jump to you on my fuck-face, i can’t even sit into my fuck-ass
Now i get two, put my heart deep into my dad
Stand in the corner, feel bad in the corner
Feel my hopes down, now the big up raw
Used to cover my scars,
But you cover it with the beauty page
Blessing in every blocks
You gave something place to stay,
Somebody turn me into that ‘0’, now you gave me that ‘A’
You gave me heart to hold, i feel it every minutes until today
I don’t know where to go, the tears that i can still feel on my face
You gave me your family to love,
It’s something that i can never re-pay
And before these 2 years i felt just like a waste,
If i don’t love you
What i’m suppose to?
— him/10 Juni 2021
